Life

The world has been on destruction mode even before i was born. Change things? I am no messiah. Just another evolving soul trying to make sense of it all. And this soul learnt that we are all here to learn one thing – joy. Knowing too much didn’t give me joy. I think i was 16 when i read that forests were torn down by the size of a football field a minute. With the speed of destruction only increasing with each passing year, doesn’t take a rocket scientist to figure we’re knowingly killing ourselves. I understood why at that point, but i couldn’t accept it. As you can imagine, i was a pretty dark, depressed and frustrated kid. How ridiculous everything seemed. Then i asked myself, what was it i really feared. Extinction? Pain? Death will come in the end anyway. We just hope for a peaceful way out. Is it that bad if the human race was wiped out? We live, we die. That’s life. Species evolve. Some fade out. That’s life. What is there to fear? Nothing. Death made me sad – my young experience being my 2 year old cousin Jonathan and favourite Uncle Peter – but i never feared it. Fear of pain maybe, but there’s always an escape from pain. Suddenly, the idea of death became peaceful. No more struggle, no more worries. No frustration or anger.

I joined a Bank’s CSR team for about 4 months. They were hungry for political connections and awards – including CSR Awards. Needless to say, my enthusiasm faded with my energy levels. I resigned after being threatened to work late hours and weekends to show my commitment.

The More You Choose, The Richer Your Life Becomes.

Ever wonder why so many people fall into a rut? Because life isn’t meant to stand still. But when we create a life that simply repeats itself day after day, that’s exactly what we’ve done.
We’ve caused our life to stand still. Yes, time will still pass right on by, but we’re no longer moving with it. We’ll age of course, and we’ll have some surprises and bumps along the way but for the most part, each day is the same as the one before and the same as the one to follow.
And there’s your rut. When you fall into this kind of life, your Spirit gets a little antsy. It longs for new experiences. It desires to branch out and grow. Deny it this desire, and the result is depression. You’ve lost your lust for life and no longer find joy in the things you used to love.
And yet, we’re surprised that depression continues to rise in our society. We’re bewildered that so many anti-depressants are needed just to keep going. How could this be? What’s causing such an epidemic? The answer is simple: lack of experience.

I choose to live life simple. Each day is a day of new awareness. I choose to wake up and enjoy, savouring every moment, not worry or live in fear. I wake up to join the world and let myself fit in. A natural flow. I choose to excel without trying, to attract all things good and kind and loving and giving, to sail through life effortlessly. I choose a life filled with love and laughter and friends. I choose to keep anyone mean and who makes me mean or feel unhappy at bay. I choose sincerity, honesty, passion and compassion. I choose to be with positive energies. I choose a life that fills me with a sense of peaceful serenity and calm completeness. Everything is easy and fun. I choose a life of abundance and natural state of flow. Everything good and kind and loving is here. Everything falls into place. Wealth, peace, harmony, love and the abundance of all my positive hearts desires to flow in my direction and to every living creature I come across.

There is no such thing as coincidence.

“When we learned about the Law of Attraction, we learned that what we expect is what will happen. We attract those things that we give our energy to, regardless of whether they’re good or bad. And likewise, we repel the things that receive no energy from us at all.
Using this concept, it stands to reason then that if our focus is on events that will take place forty years from now, there’s a good chance that we’ll still be living it up when those forty years roll around.”
“You’re probably starting to see things begin to take shape, small coincidences that you and I both know aren’t really coincidences at all but rather, a deliberate co-creation between you and the universe.”
Its not the years in your life, it’s the life in your years that matter.

20 Feb 2008, 11am

For as long as I can remember, I’ve always wondered why we exist. Why I exist.

What is the purpose, the meaning to all of this. Why bother living at all. Why are we here?

I came to an answer, to have fun. To live life, to connect with everything around us, to feel all the pleasures that is humanly possible.

But why is it then that people find life a struggle. Hard work, old age, responsibilities and commitments. Robbery, rape, murder, drugs, famine and disease have become synonymous with life.

People work so hard and drag out the days and nights feeling tired and weakened.

In this past 6 months, I have come to understand that our number one enemy is fear. Fear of pain, suffering. Fear of death. Fear of loneliness and misery. Fear triggers insecurity in us and makes us do things that doesn’t make us happy. We try so hard to keep our self safe, we forget to make ourselves happy. And to make ourselves happy takes only the simple act of living a full life.

Ask yourself, are you happy with what you’re doing? If not, do something else. If you don’t know, try everything out and find out what you like and what you don’t. Its okay not to be perfect in everything. You don’t have to strive. You can challenge yourself if you feel like it, but at your comfort level. Not someone else’s. Meeting someone else’s standards could be like dunking a basketball when you’re 5 feet tall. You have only yourself to prove to. Play by your own rules, but never forget either, that you are part of a team. Be yourself, but integrate what you can offer into your team.

Know yourself

I like being outdoors. I like working with my hands. I like understanding about life and its purpose.

Details are elements you need to understand the bigger picture. Not a step by step rule book you have to understand to a T and follow.

Mechanise the routine essentials and release your mind to ponder life’s questions. Return to your roots and be at peace to obtain infinite wisdom and compassion.

Listen to your body and let it lead you to great health. Listen to your emotions and let it guide you to happy thoughts. Emotions act indicators to what makes you happy.

If physical ailments, emotions, thoughts come in an overwhelming bundle, step out from the line of fire and breathe. Slow it down. Gradually sort and figure out what you need to respond to, address, and understand.
One physical feel at a time. One emotion at a time. One thought at a time.
They are all potential lessons.

Never place yourself in the line of fire for too long. Never let fear of losing money or love keep you in that line of fire. If you feel pressured or in the heat of an emotional pile-up, stop. Rest. Let your body attune and understand what is going on. Let yourself heal in the process of being moulded and uplifted.

A physical body can take only so many hits,
An emotional heart feels what is happening intuitively

A thought leads to an outcome and your emotion feels pleasure or pain from the outcome. Your emotional state of mind is an indicator of your thoughts focus – happy focus or sad focus. If you’re happy, your focus brought you there. If you want to be happy again, repeat that focus/thought.

5 May 2008 – 8.32am

How do you see life different?

If you dread waking up in the morning, how can you shift your focus to long to wake up everyday?

A hot cuppa and your laptop?

A hike?

I need to roam – that is my nature.

I need open spaces – physical and in mind.

I cannot confine myself to an office or to standard practices. It is not me. I can not do superficial office chats.

I need real challenges that others cannot figure out.

I need long walks.

I need friends for deep life conversations.

I need a partner to share life with.

My life is complete because i have decided to be who I am. Not someone society depicts is the right person to be. Not what society deems normal and acceptable.

I am whole because i understand and acknowledge who i am.

I need family – loved ones.

Money.

A home.

Food, clothing, luxuries.

The things i need makes me whole. Even the little things. Without sleep, you are not whole. And when I’m not whole, something is missing. I’d have forgotten a part of me.

List down the things you need. The things that make you who you are. The things that make you whole. Then live it.

Live who you are.

“There is no polarity. There is only one. Pain and pleasure do not exist. These only exist in the illusion of duality we call life. In the oneness there just IS. Anything that happens, it can be whatever you want it to be so we just say thank you and return to the singularity. Because then, we return to  gratitude. Gratitude = love, and singularity = love. Hence, there is only love.’

“When we see separation, we get seperation. When we see perfection, we get perfection. We are ALWAYS right.”

“Living in singularity takes focus. We have to focus everytime we make a decision. Focus on perfection and abundance”

“There is no where to go, nothing to do, and everythign to be. so right now all is perfect and always will.”

Gratitude = love, and we all connect through love and through the heart easily.

Gratitude, trust, desire leads to change. Change is powered by desire. But first, you have to trust. Trust allows you to fly and let go. Trust in life. Trust that life will give all you ask. That life has already given all that you have asked. To trust, fill your heart with love and gratitude. Remember. Remember that life has already given and will continue to give. Gratitude -> Trust -> Desire -> Joy. Life delivers all that you desire. Life has to deliver. Its a vibrational science. Energy particles of similar vibrations always come together. But remember, we live in a physical world, so movement if often needed. Often, we have to do little. Choose to do inline with our BEING. Think, breathe and act what you want. So in essence, you get what you want TODAY.

All we need to do is trust and let go and the river of life will carry us. The current is created by desire. And then if we do not trust the current we have created ourselves will feel like it is drowning us!!!! We have to let go and trust because once we let go the river will carry us. And as our desires grow the river grows and the current flows stronger and faster. That is why great masters take years to show their work. And yet they have been great masters from the very beginning

We are all destined to get what we want and we are all destined for enlightenment.

When two energy bodies that are separated in different dimentions vibrate at the same frequency then they ‘communicate’ at the point of synconisation. So thats why vibration is the key that is why its the law of attraction in effect. The mind creates instantly but the delay into creation in matter is because the energy has to slow down and become ’solid’. To do this takes the ‘illusion’ of time to effect itself. In essence it happens at the same time. But we don’t perceive it this way. There is a time lag – while the ‘idea is in the toaster’ – so thats why we get burnt of 1/2 baked ideas being created when we mess with the process and don’t trust. So thats where the next key comes in. They key of allowance. Pop the toast in – press it down – trust it will work – walk away and come back when it pops up ‘ !!!

When you are in a sincere state of gratitude your energy (vibrational resonance) is one of acceptance and harmony. You resonate and as a result project a much higher vibrational frequency which is exactly what attracts to you the events, conditions, and circumstances that you desire. EVERYTHING unfolds in your life perfectly just as you instruct.

Abundance

When you learn that wheat can be milled into flour, we all have flour.

Then I figure that flour can be turned into bread, and we all have bread.

A third of us has the epiphany to slice the bread, and we all have sliced bread.

A fourth of us figures toast bread would be an excellent idea, and suddenly, we all have toasters.

This is abundance. We lift each other up. No one person has contributed more then another. No one person deserves more monetary gain then the other. We are collective. We are one. A toaster would not have been invented if it were not for the one who started milling flour. And there’s no point competing in the milling and selling of flour. Support the miller, use his flour and invent something that lifts society up another level. Or assist the miller to improve on what he already knows. Share knowledge to improve the community as a whole.

Just as you feed your mouth with one hand and the whole body receives nourishment, or how your feet runs and takes your whole body up hills and over mountains – a community of people, when working as one, can lift the whole community body up. It doesn’t matter if it’s your right or left hand doing the feeding, or that your right leg is stronger and more effective then your left. There’s no you or I. Only us. The best we can do for us.

“As we appreciate the ever-increasing value of each person who makes up the Wholeness, we realize that each of us is far more valuable than any amount of money. As we become a society led by our open hearts, we will naturally create a system of mutual support and equality in which money flows freely, generously and in continuously expanding abundance.” – Arnold M. Patent, Money & Beyond

Eventually, as we realize the value of collective individuals and the essential roles they play as a whole, we won’t even need the monetary system. Valuing and paying someone more then another is like saying your brain is more important then your heart.

Illusion Life

When I realized life is what you make of it, I also realized life is an illusion.

Everything around you is only a platform for a play. Drama happens when people come together. The string of relationships and bonds makes this illusion seem so real. Our senses makes us feel that everything around us is real.

But the truth is, we create the things around us. We draw our relationships and experiences in. Hunger, love, rejection, anger, joy. Anything physical and emotional that we feel is real, is actually what our minds draw in.

Our minds make things happen.

It starts in your head. Your beliefs and thoughts make you react to external objects in a certain way and you act accordingly. When you act (and all of us are actors), you trigger a cause and effect. The physical effect touches your senses which you feel are real – reality. Physical reality.

The trick is to know what thoughts lead to what effects. Happy thoughts usually lead to happy effects. Think happy and you will react joyfully to the things around you. Think you’re trapped or struggling and you will react accordingly to the things you see.

As a kid, we take on our parents belief systems. Some may not serve us. To change or remove a belief is simply a matter of taking on a new and stronger view point and emotion. Something that gives you stronger conviction of what’s ‘real’.

If you suddenly realize that life is magic, that you don’t need to worry about tomorrow and your bank account, then there’s no more fear and concern left of sleeping on the streets and dying of hunger and thirst. Suddenly, you realize your physical needs will always be taken care of. Your approach in life will be different. Your thoughts and beliefs change. People will stop asking what you do for a living, because you don’t have to DO anything to live.

What your ancestors believed is no longer your belief.

You know now with fact that it is silly to pray to sun gods. You form new beliefs. There’s no fear of raising the wrath of the gods. Imagine a mind – its thoughts and beliefs – when it believed with conviction that if you don’t sacrifice a virgin every year, all your crops will die and everyone will starve to death. So what will you do to serve a greater good?

Now here’s the thing – what if suddenly, I realize that life is this silly game of minds? My physical needs are real. As long as I am a physical body, I need nourishment and shelter. But to obtain nourishment and shelter has gotten so complexed. The drama men play have hoarded all natural resources and knowledge. They have placed man-made price tags on everything. The only thing left untagged is the sun. Even the air we breathe – if you choose quality air – comes with a price.

I’ve learnt that Profit is in direct conflict with Abundance.

Imagine if there were 10 times more diamonds then there is today. What would happen to its price? Drop. Profit goes down. In order to protect their profit, they have to ensure all things are valuable. They have to ensure scarcity. They have to cut costs where possible. They have to find the cheapest means to obtain the highest margins. At what risk?

This is the drama we’re caught in today. The illusion of wealth.

Everyone of us is supporting the profit system. We’re perpetuating this drama because we believe money is real. We’re perpetuating scarcity.

Such strange illusions we weave.

The illusion I have in my head is what society will call a dream.. because only I believe its real.

Different Worlds

I was born into a world where we were told what was right and wrong, what should and should not be done. All our actions are dictated out in black and white – what is proper and improper.

Duality vs Oneness – My world teaches me duality.

We progress to school and strive to study hard in subjects our world says is important. Exams will tell us our position amongst our peers. Number one is the best position – the position that tells everyone you are the top achiever. Then you graduate from school and move on to the next stage – work. We are told there are thousands of applicants applying for the same one position. Only one will get it.

Competition vs Creation, Struggle and Scarcity vs Abundance – My world taught me to compete and work hard, that nothing comes easy.

Once you have a job, you learn the importance of working hard and achieving company goals for that promotion and bonus. We also learn that others are vying for the same position, and may not play fair to obtain it. Then we learn that once you have that position, others may still be vying it.

Envy and jealousy vs harmony and rapport.

Greed for power and material wealth vs sharing of abundance.

We learn limitation – that there are limited jobs, with limited positions and promotions.

Old World: Differentiation, competition, struggle, demand, desire.

Or

New World: Oneness, creation, peace, giving and sharing.

Imagine a world where you were born to bond with the world around you. World unification towards a common good – our common goal to improve our lives. No more differentiation and class structures. No more division by nations or political and religious beliefs. All one and all equal.

Instead of being told what was wrong or right, you are encouraged to seek the truth for yourself. You are guided to your wisdom.

Instead of being graded, you are taught to find your own strengths and harness and grow your individual skills and talents. You are guided to learn who you are and how to give your best to the world.

Instead of competing, you learn to create. You are given support to find your fit in society. Everyone welcomes you with open arms and helps you find the place where you belong. A support system that welcomes all young into the adult world – where graduation is when you find yourself and what you want to give for a living.

When everyone gives, everyone receives. The givers have to receive – it is a cycle.

A world that is limitless and loving and giving. A world not boxed by fixated beliefs, but open to new thoughts and ideas, new insights and wisdom. A world guided by compassion and love.

If only we understood that we are one, and that competing with or believing others are wrong is like competing and thinking wrong of ourselves – as we hold others back or put them down, we hold ourselves back . You may be the best, but you are only the best in the society bubble you’re in. Imagine if the whole of society stops competing and starts lifting itself up – a new world, a new civilization.

Since I was a kid I’ve dreamed of a mechanized world – a world of abundance where houses were built by machines, crops are automatically grown and there is more then enough of everything for everyone. A world where we are relieved from what we must do, to grow and develop ourselves to whom we can be – to give our best to everyone around us.

A friend shared a documentary with me titled Zeigeist. There’s this sense of peace that goes “At Last” when I see my thoughts and beliefs reflected on someone else. Almost feels like coming home, finally. I was reminded of the vision I had when I was a teen and the frustrations I felt at what this world is doing to itself. This documentary clip gave me hope. As I watched it, I kept thinking, what a lucky generation the future will be. I wish I can live it. http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=7065205277695921912

Destiny or Choice?

Is life pre-destined, or do we mould it by the choices we make?

Many of us western educated ones would like to believe we have control. We even make life into an absolute science.

When we reduce life to a science, its somehow easier to handle. Emotions are taken out and we can understand things with our heads. But are we missing something? Could placing things under microscope scrutiny narrow our vision from something bigger?

Is life cause and effect, or has the very cause we trigger been pre-determined?

At one point, I really wanted to believe we had control. That our minds are stronger then anything around us – but that also means my mind has never been strong enough to make anything happen. The effort of thought alone was starting to become a disappointing struggle. Then it dawned on me – I am a speckle of dust trying to control the sand dunes of Sahara.

Destiny. Do you believe in destiny?

If you do, there’s no more struggle.

Everything is just meant to be. Life, is flow.

Life is as it’s meant to be.

There is no struggle.

Nowhere to go,

nothing to do,

and everything to be.

It means,

I am meant to be here,

I am meant to be now,

this is my moment.

If I was meant to meet someone, it is already planned.

If I was meant to do something, I would already be doing it.

Typing on this keyboard, posting up thoughts over and over again – it is meant to be.

Walking into a job interview, getting the job, not getting the job – it was meant to be.

Bumping into certain people in your life, connecting well or not connecting at all – it is meant to be.

Everything happens because it is meant to be,

Everything is as it’s supposed to be.

This is destiny.

A bird was meant to fly. It doesn’t question.

I am meant to be here. Right here, right now. I am not supposed to question. Life knows where it’s taking me.

Acceptance is the first step.

There’s no trying.

There’s no struggle.

Just flow….

Being jobless, for some being without money; having loved ones worry about you and anchor you down, or not having anyone care or bother at all; it is all meant to be.

Accept. Release. You’re free.

It is all meant to be.

Your emotions, frustrations, reactions, downfalls, achievements, inner drive, lack of inner drive … all meant to be.

Accept. Be free. Flow.

This is destiny.

Just know.

Never Postpone Happiness

If there’s one thing I’ve learnt the past year, never short change yourself. You are entitled to so much joy in life. Every moment lived in fear are precious moments not lived in joy. Every moment not lived in joy and you’ve short changed yourself on life.

The past 3 weeks were amazing. On a sunny Sunday, I walked into a bustling bakery down the road with a friend and grabbed a wholemeal loaf. As i approached the cashier, spontaneously, a question popped out, “Do you have any jobs available?” Next thing I knew, 2 days after, I’m running around packing, collecting, labeling, and cashiering in one of the fastest moving bakeries in town. I have at least a dozen cuts on my hands. My back is aching. My legs feel like mush (getting used to staying on my feet and running around for 9 to 10 hours a day). Was paid a peanut and a dime, and had 20 minute lunches in a tiny storeroom corner sitting on cardboard boxes of supplies, but gosh was it fun. I felt alive! Should have done this long ago.

I fell sick last week (cough, fever, flu. sore throat – the whole cocktail) and my shoulders and back (and bones??) ached even further – had no time to recover. I still went to work. Didn’t want to miss even a day cause it was such fun.

My aches will recover. My flu and cough will go away. My cuts will disappear. And I will have memories of working with these amazing people serving what I love – good food to good people. Such joy.

Sad that it had to end yesterday. I have to look for a job that pays much better and has less strenuous hours. I knew i love food and the food service industry, but i didn’t know it could make me come so alive.

My colleagues were such hardworking and fun people. Very skilled and underpaid, but they are simple folk who didn’t look beyond to demand for more. They asked me why i had to leave. I told them i needed a higher pay. They asked me point blank and honestly how much i needed. I smiled and said, “6 times more.” And they went, “hahhh!!! really ah??” … errr, yarlor.

I wish i could have stayed, but i need to move on. JB? Europe? I know one thing for sure though – it has to be the food service industry. A bakery? A café?

I’ve never felt so free and happy. I’ve never had my bank account going backwards either, so I do know I need to get my life in gear. At least now I know, I’m gearing in the right direction – joy.

In the past 7 working years, I’ve met so many colleagues who felt trapped in their jobs. They want to move on – some to the point of depression – but they’ve imposed on themselves over the years with commitments and fears. Even as I was working in the bakery, a sweet malay (baker) girl came up to me to ask…

“Kak, kak pergi Johor yea?”

“Yea”

“Kat mana? Bila??”

“Minggu depan. Kat Taman Pelangi, JB.”

Her face fell.

“Seronoknyaaaa….I dari JB. I mau balik Kak.”

“Kenapa tak balik? JB takda kerja ke?”

“Ada. Tapi belajar kat sini.” (At the bakery from the Pastry Chef’s)

”Sampai bila?”

“Tahun depan. Bulan enam.”

“Tak lama lagi lah.”

“LAMA kak. Tak boleh tunggu. I mau balik.”

She looked so sad my heart ached.

“Kalau hati tak boleh tunggu, ambil cuti – seminggu ke, dua minggu ke – balik JB cari kerja. Kalau hati tak senang, kepala pun sakit.”

“Yea, yea, kak! Memang!! Tak henti henti pikir keluarga kat JB. Kat JB I gembira kak…”

English Translation:

“Big sis (sign of respect), are you headed to Johor?”

“Yes”

“Where? When??”

“Next week. At Taman Pelangi, JB.”

Her face fell.

“Wowww….I’m from JB. I want to go back Big Sis.”

“Why don’t you? Doesn’t JB have jobs for you?”

“There are. But i’m learning here.” (At the bakery from the Pastry Chef’s)

”For how long?”

“Till next year. 6th month (June).”

“That’s not too long.”

“It IS Big Sis. I can’t wait. I want to go home.”

She looked so sad my heart ached.

“If your heart can’t wait, take a vacation – a week, two weeks – return to JB and look for work. If your heart is unsettled, your head will start hurting too.”

“Yes it’s true!! I can’t stop thinking about my family in JB. In JB, i’m happy …..”

Seeking Soul

Once, education was thought to be a waste of time. Children were put to work the fields – it is by planting crops that you get your meals, not spending time in classrooms with books and words.

Times have changed, but the elements of our narrow views remain humanity’s biggest obstacle.

Now, we encourage education in pursuit of money for food, shelter and luxuries. Children are placed in classrooms to learn – it is through education that you can get a good job and paycheck to fulfill your needs, not spending time pondering about life and its meaning.

We graduate as soulless processors scrambling to fit ourselves as a cog in the wheel and hoping that one day, we will be at the driver’s seat. Or better yet, to own the vehicle.

We couldn’t see how education and a piece of paper could put food on our table, just as now, we cannot see how finding the meaning to life can nourish us. Even as I type this, I still don’t have the answer – how spiritual pursuits can feed us physically. But I know that without it, I am empty inside. No matter how many smiles I plaster on or how many attempts I put in to be happy, I am not. And just as the children who struggled to find understanding from their parents for their need to feed their minds, I am struggling to find understanding from mine for my need to feed my soul.

“Life is just a chance to grow a soul.” – A. Powell Davies

“You don’t have a soul. You are a Soul. You have a body.” – C.S. Lewis

“I put my heart and my soul into my work, and have lost my mind in the process.” – Vincent van Gogh

“The soul is born old but grows young. That is the comedy of life.” – Oscar Wilde

“When you have only two pennies left in the world, buy a loaf of bread with one, and a lily with the other.” – Chinese proverb

“The human soul needs actual beauty more than bread.” – D.H. Lawrence

“Wisdom is to the soul what health is to the body” – De Saint-Real

“The soul is placed in the body like a rough diamond, and must be polished, or the luster of it will never appear” – Daniel Defoe

“Whatever satisfies the soul is truth.” - Walt Whitman

“Our Ego (our connection to the world, our need to prove to this world) keeps the soul imprisoned. Our thirst for money, sex, image, and validation takes away our main purpose in life.

After death the soul chooses to enter another body, take on another life, and continue the search for Divinity. We have already lived many lifetimes; we will continue to do so until we match the conscious levels of the avatars that are the true leaders of this planet. The only difference between you now and the avatars (Lord Jesus, Lord Buddha, Lord Krishna…) is that they have expanded their consciousness and were liberated from the materialism that pollutes the world. When you expand your consciousness, all things are possible.” – Jim Hague

Evening Guru

Evening’s

with my Guru

Day 1 – The Awakening

Day 2 – Secret to Enlightenment… See Correct to En-lighten-men

Day 3 – Energy, Emotion, Focus and Feeling

Day 4 – Present

Day 5 – Gratitude, Trust, Desire

Day 6 – Life is an Illusion

Day 1 – The Awakening

“When the student is ready…”

Guru: If you knew but a small part of my life journey that brought me to the time and space now that our paths are crossing then you would see me differently and most importantly you would see yourself differently just as I see you and everyone else I meet.

I want to say more and share more with you … my heart is touched by meeting you… touched in a most magical way.

Student: Dear Guru, why do I not feel the same intensity? What am I missing? How do I see the magic that you see? You shine your light and the world responds. You create the most divine magic right in front of my very eyes and show me how easy it is to do it. You give me a gift beyond words. You unfold as the most beautiful lotus that you are. You are doing it in front of my very eyes as I watch and learn what I have to do, and yet I fell I could not do the same despite you saying I am the one who woke you to remember more of who you are. I fell so far away and am bound to a life of smallness and not living out my true life, passion, love and caring in this world.

Guru: I stand here and share the light that I do because of making choices and the biggest choice I now make is not to hold back or hold on. I choose that fear is a total illusion and that when I feel it to let it go. I forget often about the choices I choose but I remember now quicker and quicker – usually within 5 minutes or less but not always – it sometimes goes to a day like it does when you want so badly for something to continue.

When you experience a deep love and a deep connection – a love not manufactured but a result of TWO souls choosing to let go and be, that is the simple magic – its that simple it really is – just letting go and keeping on remembering to do so.

Each and every one of us on this planet once we have let go has a responsibility to serve others in also letting go. This is my service to you which is a service to self. Self for me is everything. I can never ever be free until everyone else is free because everyone is me and I am everyone. “My father and I are one.” is what a special master all those years ago shared. The story has not changed.

So what you see with your eyes in me is but something that has been there always but was hidden for most of my life until only a few short months ago when I let go. You know you have the same choice. And you know you are no less than me nor no greater as I truly know that also.

I love the light in you I deeply love that and I love what is you.

BE special always my dearest friend and walking companion.

Choose joy and fun, always.

I can feel myself remembering something very important with you … you are reminding me to look at myself 100% and how I am experiencing things and what is happening as I experience what I experience … so this is the gift I am receiving from you right now —

Thank you for sharing your time and life with me right now

Day 2 – Secret to Enlightenment… See Correct to En-lighten-men

When we lighten our thoughts we move up in a lift – we lift ourselves and others up.

So many ‘self development’ books talk about changing this in our lives, developing that and transforming ourselves. They talk about a process of evolution where we start out today and “we work on ourselves”. What if we did not actually need to do anything to be ‘perfect’? What if there was nothing to do at all except let go. What if life was a process of subtraction instead of addition? By that I mean, so many people say we need to improve this in our lives and add this quality and add that perspective. What if all we needed to do was subtract instead so we can return to the focus of a perfectly whole spiritual state of perfection? And what if this process was really easy to do? What if it was so easy we could do it in a heart beat? WOW! How would that feel? To become enlightened in 0.65 seconds?

Day 3 – Energy, Emotion, Focus and Feeling

Guru: What you see about yourself is your choice. It is easy. Just follow your feelings. When you feel bad your focus is wrong. Wrong in perspective to your non-physical self’s focus. What you choose to focus on is what and who you are.

Our brain is an image processor – nothing more! It processes energy patterns and converts them to images. That’s why we can use it to project through time and space and see things. That’s why I can see your energy – my being sees your energy patterns and then my focus transmits them into feelings in my body and images

What do you see? About your self – because what you see is what you are.

Student: I don’t know what I see.

Guru: Focus that’s all – all we need is focus.

Your feelings tell you what you are focusing on. And what you choose to focus on is what and who you are – in your physical experience that is.

A Secret is just seeing correctly. So what you see about yourself is your choice. It is easy. Just follow your feelings. When you feel bad your focus is wrong. Wrong in perspective to your non-physical self’s focus

Student: So follow your feelings? It tells u what is real and correct?

Guru: DON’T FOLLOW your feelings – observe your feelings then change them. CHANGE THEM! As we change them we change our experience. We only need to seek relief from the current feeling that does not feel good, so we change our thinking slightly – focus – and then watch our feelings change, then continue to do this.

This is moving with the flow of our spirit then or the river of life. Go with the flow or against it

Against = Pain and Discomfort

With = JOY

Our emotions are a guidance system linked through our brain chemistry, so while we change our thoughts the feeling remain for a few minutes while the chemicals change, then we feel better or worse!!! Make sense?

Student: Starting to. So don’t follow your feelings.. isn’t that going against the flow?

Guru: You do not need to follow your feelings you need to observe them. Treat them like a messaging system as signals to move away or towards something? Our spiritual focused part can not quickly pass mental info to us – but can send energy info that can be focused by the brain as feelings, so we will always receive clear messages ALWAYS.

If we feel good – we are on focus.

If we feel bad – our focus is not serving us.

Student: So our focus is not serving us rather then the situation being bad.

Guru: Correct

There is no such thing as a bad experience. Just a ‘bad’ focus. That’s why the holocaust victims that survived did so and came out sane. They focused on the good. So our focus IS our CHOICE. The reality of the world is not – EXCEPT – the reality of our PERSONAL world is OUR creation and we create that through our focus.

Walk down the street and focus on the flowers or the cars. Your choice. Which makes you feel better?

Focus on war of love making. Which makes you feel better?

It is simple.

If you live in a valley you see the valley, you see the mountain tops, but you see the valley in detail.

If you live on the mountain top, you see the valley in outline and hundreds of miles all around in outline, you see further and more fuller, but you can’t see the details unless you magnify them – ie focus on them.

And if we experience physical things we don’t want then we need to own we created that through attraction – thought – and then change our thought and this changes our attraction.

All easy when you focus through your feelings.

Forget the mind (until you have mastered feeling). Use your emotions and let them guide you. Just watch your feelings and then notice the thoughts you are having

Student: So if something ‘bad’ happens – you lose a loved one, a friend – it’s all about focus?

Guru: Correct

Student: How can you focus on something that gives you joy if a loved one is taken away from you?

Guru: Correct – if you SEE correct. How can u focus on something ‘good’ if someone else is in pain – if you change your focus and LOOK for the perfection you will discover magic. Pain is a choice of focus.

Student: Hunger and pain as magic?

Guru: What is pain?

If you are experiencing that – you are attracting that into your life

Student: All the African kids attracted hunger?

Guru: Yes they did. If you see pain then the pain is yours. But if you cannot see HOW this is happening then there is a BIGGER Question to ask and the bigger Q’s lead us to the point of seeing perfection. It is called expanding our awareness.

The only Q is it your pain?

If it is you can change it – NOW!

If it is not you cannot change it – not that it needs changing

We all TRY to change what we do not like instead of seeing what is differently. That does not mean that if we have starvation in front of us we choose to ignore it. We can, but when your heart is connected you usually cannot. But when things are not in front of you why focus on them

Student: You are trying to say everything is at it should be?

Guru: Yes.

Everything is perfect. The only thing to correct is your thinking so you feel better. Just change your focus.

It is all about focus.

Where do you want to focus? You can focus on a bigger picture or you can focus on the small things that you do not choose to like.

Student: What happens if you focus on the non-physical u?

Guru: Then your energy will accelerate and your intuition and imagination will grow rapidly. And then if you focus on integrating that into your physical experience you see the results manifested physically that is how you become enLIGHTened you just start to see yourself as light and you FILL up with light and become EN-LIGHT-END. It is easy because it is all in the focus and that is why its a ‘SEE CORRECT’ because most of us choose not to see correct.

We are ONE. So the greater view of SELF is a wholeness – that we are all the same and all ONE. Connected – totally by the fabric of energy that we call love

That is how I can feel you – through that fabric.

You are eternally wise. Your expanded consciousness brought you here. YOU chose to come. Your DESIRE brought you and that is what creates everything. And that is how you continue to grow – if you go back to the thought that brought you here, you will see how you created it.

If you look at what feeling you had when you chose to come, then you will notice you would have felt good about it, so you accepted it. And that is all you need to do in your life. Listen to you feelings THEN FOLLOW THEM.

Student: I thought change them? Change them if it makes u feel bad, yes?

Guru: Correct. Follow them as in action. Take the actions that are needed.

Student: Replicate the emotions and that leads you to the outcome?

Guru: No. Not quite.

If you are feeling ‘bad’ then change your thinking and look for better feelings.

When we are facing an experience we can choose our feeling based on the focus we take. We have 100% choice in our focus – always – which creates the feeling.

Day 4 – Present

Life is present. Life is a present.

Be in the Now. Come out and play.

Guru: Here is my love to you - While you remain in a way of world of your own creation staring at a wonderful horizon the world right here is passing you by. People are calling your name and inviting you to play and if you are just not there or here, then you are no where. Bring your heart into this world and then the incredible power that is you will create something amazing. Staying ‘out there’ will create nothing. Engage in this world and the world will engage in you.

There is no where to go, nothing to do, and everything to be.

There is nothing but here and now.

Regret can exist in the past. Worry, anxiety and fear can exist in the future. None can exist in the present. Every present moment is a gift. Everything around you is a present.

Present moment is life’s gift to you – you can choose anything. You can decide on anything.

You can ponder about past regrets or worry with anxiety about the future, but both the past and the future do not exist.

What exists is PRESENT. You can choose to be here – to live in the present with excitement and joy. To be alive!

What exists is right here, right now, this moment.

We live in the age of instant manifestation. The whole world is set up so we can do things now. Yet what stops us? Not the world!!!!

Student: Money?

Guru: Most put money at No.1 but it is normally a bit down the list. No.1 usually is fear.

Day 5 – Gratitude, Trust, Desire

Student: I wake up every morning searching for life’s *skip* button

Guru: (chuckle)(chuckle)(chuckle)(chuckle)(chuckle)

I know how you feel. Moving ’spaces’ in life is an interesting trick but so often when we move ’spaces’ to where we think we want to be we find things wrong with that and want to move again funny that ehh!

It’s so easy to be in that cycle for a lifetime! I was there for 41 years!!!

Student: How did it change?

Guru Gratitude

Gratitude

Gratitude

Gratitude

And Gratitude.

Then Trust

Trust

Trust

And more Trust.

Then Desire

More Desire

And more desire.

Then repeat the whole cycle.

Gratitude, Trust, Desire

Its a cycle where all three exist at the same time

Student: Gratitude for?

Guru: Gratitude for where you are.

Gratitude is the platform from which to launch change – change is powered by desire but if you do not trust, then you are stuck in frustration and or fear.

Trust allows you to fly! And to let go of what you have for something you want. Trust in life – in its process of delivering EVERYTHING you desire. It HAS to deliver because its a vibrational science. The universe would fall apart tomorrow if it was not true its called the Law of Attraction.

Energy particles of similar vibration will always come together just like you and your friends. They are similar to you that’s why you like them.

So when we launch from a platform of gratitude and allow ourselves to become our desires then we HAVE to TRUST to make that journey happen.

Student: Then all i have to do is wait?

Guru: YES! But ‘waiting’ is not always about doing nothing.

Sometimes it is often it is not! We live in a physical world – so movement is usually needed. Movement of energy or energy in motion – eMotion. Often we have to DO little though when we CHOOSE to do what is in line with our BEING and from here all you do is think, breath and act like your desire is already here. Your desire has materialised. so in essence you get what you want TODAY. NOW!!!!!!!!!!

The larger part of the picture you want will then slot in right behind desire is what is expanding our universe! We cannot be void of desire. Its what we love to expand. Make your world that which you want and allow others to make their world that which they want and never judge their choices. Even when you don’t like them. We can only create our world and BE who we are and that in itself is SO powerful

Focus on the perfection and abundance — always remembering we can have EVEYTHING we desire. We just have to remember we can and keep remembering because this life shows us the opposite but the opposite is not necessarily true unless we choose that!

Hatch the desire now!

Just keep asking of life and it will deliver to you. It has to.

Desire

Drives

Growth

The desire is the first step. Without that there is no awakening. So my desire now is to be the perfection through my actions and words and thoughts – 100%. There is no journey to take in that. Just a decision and to focus on that decision each moment.

So anyone can choose that at any point just like we can choose anything at any point.

imagine your future happening right here and now – where all your dreams and hearts desires happen immediately. You live it immediately. That’s how simple things are.

Just choose and then be what you choose and NEVER ever stop BEING what you choose no matter what. That is how we move from one reality perspective to another in a blink of an eye.

Like flying — one min on ground, next min in air. All it takes is a decision to let go! There is no journey to flight once you have decided to fly. Its; just letting go and flying.

The ‘journey’ is in making the decision to want to fly – that could take years or lifetimes!!!!

Remember, you have what you want, NOW!!!

Day 6 – Life is an Illusion

Life is a big pool of energy that is woven by us all — that is the illusion — what we see is what we get — when we finally ’see’ this then we can just giggle and realise life is whatever we want to make it because it is just liquid light appearing to be solid. Then we can just move into gratitude and enjoy the game of life and decide what part we want to play in it…. it is all a game. Nothing is real except what we choose to make ‘real’ in our mind and with our emotions.

And of course emotions are nothing more than an advanced communication system between our minds here and our spirits ‘there’. We feel bad when our thoughts differ from the energy view point of our spirit — it called cross vibrational chaos !!!

My Migraine Battle – Part 2

I was so dazed and disoriented that I tripped in the bathroom, bruised both my legs and left elbow, and split the nail on my right big toe. But I couldn’t feel any of it. All I could feel was the jack-hammer drilling into my head from the conversation outside the house. I was trying to get away from it by rushing through the bathroom to the connected room deeper in the house.

I writhed in pain and tears with one thought in mind. I want to die. Please let me die. But no such release came.

I’ve never woken up the next morning feeling so weak before. As though from a really high fever which leaves one drained and limp.

I tried sitting in the hall, but the light was too bright and returned to hide again in my room – dark curtains drawn.

Sleeping the better half of the day didn’t help. It just made me more dazed, but staying awake hurt my eyes. Sitting straight took so much effort. My mind couldn’t focus on anything or it would hurt. Any thought hurt.

Bali – Stone